Fix me

I really wanna quit studying , but I promise myself to earn a degree and if time allow, I would want to pursue masters. It was never because of , having difficulties studying nor learning, but the fact that my college is pretty fucked up. I feel cheated , because the tutors are incompetent  and I could not  find a single  sense of belonging being there. Everyday, I would tell myself that I am here just for the sake of studying and learning. It got me thinking , why such small space I could not find anyone to trust on ? Even if things were rough and dark before , but i still had my good company with me all around.

     The ying & yang is a symbol of good & bad .If you were to look at it deeper and closely , you will find that in each there's both of them . ying inside of yang and yang inside of ying. In other words ; even in good , you will find bits of bad , & you will sure find yourself bits of good ,amongst bad. The ying & yang is representative of the ultimate balance life.

     I may have been recovered and have stayed away from drugs and whatnot.But, somehow god took away all my good company for a moment .He din't took away, but he put them in a distance.  He have changed me individually even for worst or for good, but this isolation have made me stronger individual.

  Yet, at times I do feel kinda lonely and empty. I would want to quit studying here in unitar jb , because I don't feel like this place bring the best out of me, This place wasn't made for me. Basically, I really hate being here , because I never like going to class being with tutor who can't even teach you properly, they never allow new things into their perspectives. College or university are places, where I want to broaden my minds and unravel into new perspectives. IF this place is going to teach me what 's on the slides, I could just do that at home in my own room ?





Im in a position where , I really wanna move on and forget about this crazy place. Yet, thinking about my tomorrow, stresses and worry me . All i want is to make myself happy . I guess,if you never like something , You will never love it.